Affirmative Journey Day 14 ~ Let's stay together

Affirmation 14 ~ As we give we receive - I am sending out love and appreciation with enthusiasm!

Let's Stay Together ~ Al Green ~ Click HERE to watch.

 Yellowstone

Ali ~ Today my beloved returns home after being gone for fourteen days!  My ego mind is amazed that only three weeks ago I felt such a great distance between us and now I feel so close, but my heart is not amazed it is very comfortable.  As I close my eyes and bring my awareness to my heart center, I feel a warmth and fullness that wasn’t there before.  This is very exciting to me, as though I am coming back to life!  Intuitively I feel that I am not only coming back to life but expanding my experience of love like never before.  I have great anticipation for what is unfolding and I am so blessed that you are reading this, because I know that my sharing of my journey is having a ripple out effect, breathing love awareness into the collective consciousness.

As I have continued to give my love to Michael through these affirmations and entries, and he has shared his thoughts and love with me, we have been actively engaged in the law of circulation.  Ernest Holmes states:

“When the law of circulation is retarded, stagnation results. It is only when we allow the Divine current to flow through us, in and out, we really express life. The law of giving and receiving is definite.”

This daily practice has allowed the Divine current to flow through us and enliven US.  Today I feel more alive and engaged in life, I feel more love, more loved, and more loving, not only toward Michael, but all people and life in general.  I can see that prior to our experiment I had been hindering the law of circulation in regards to love and activating it in regards to anger, hurt, frustration, and resentment.  I have known better than to do this, but that has not stopped me.  I can admit that underneath my positivity was this scared little girl feeling sad and hurt, that was hindering the flow of love.  I now loving release her from trying to hold on to the past - I see her in my minds eye, playing and laughing - poking her tongue out at me!

As I give, I receive - I am enthusiastically sending out love and appreciation to Michael as he drives fourteen hours to be with me.  I look forward to re-kindling our love tonight as we hold each other and connect our bodies, minds, and souls.  I am open and receptive to the love that is being birthed through our intention - I receive with deep love and gratitude, give abundantly, and from this I am blessed.

Namaste'

Michael and I are so excited by our blogging experiment that we have decide to continue writing together and starting tomorrow I will be posting in a new blog titled "BEing Love" - http://betheloveyouseeknow.blogspot.com

Affirmative Journey Day 13 ~ Excited anticipation for my beloved's return

Affirmation 13 ~ My thoughts, words, and actions align with my visions and goals

Enjoying a meal together ~ one of life's simple pleasures

Ali ~ My goal for these entries is to establish, develop, and maintain a loving, inspiring, fun, passionate spiritual partnership.  And to share it with others, that it may serve in a positive way.  In this way, I am aligning my thoughts, words, and actions with my goal.

I have been on a spiritual path for many years and I know the power of thought.  I especially know the power and impact my thoughts have had in my life.  It is my practice to direct my thoughts to what I desire and away from what I do not want.  This can be tricky because I have a tendency to want to think about my problems or issues, to try to fix and find solutions.  But what I have experienced is that the more attention I pay to the problem, the more life I breathe into it, and that is not so good.  So, I continually identify positive thoughts and solutions and pay attention to those thoughts.  It is my experience that energy flows where my attention goes.  I keep my attention on myself - on being present - on asking myself, “what can I do right now to breathe more love into this situation?”

Michael and I have agreed to come together and walk hand in hand and heart to heart in a spiritually conscious way.  To take time to look more deeply into life from the perspective of being a spiritual being having a human experience.  We have also made fresh new agreements to be more present with one another, to take time to listen without interjecting our opinions and solutions, and to make having fun a top priority.  We didn’t used to have much fun because we were to serious and stressed for that!

So now the fun begins - he will be home tomorrow and we are heading off for a week to visit friends and family, I want our time to be meaningful, interesting, active, relaxing, and FUN!  So, I breathe life into our vacation with thoughts, I visualize the places and people we will visit - I think loving and appreciative thoughts about them.  I create plans - not only an itinerary of who, what, and when but I create plans to have alone time with my beloved.  (I will share what we did to connect with each other as we go.)  I didn’t always put “US” at the top of our list, we seemed to fit in somewhere at the bottom, if at all.

Conscious living starts with being present in the NOW, the only point of creation.  Then with our thoughts and words - which are our tools in being conscious co-creators.  Divine right action will follow.

I am filled with excited anticipation for my beloved's return, an easy road-trip, and a fun filled vacation!

Namaste'

Michael ~ This affirmation brings me back to center.  I love this because this very thought causes me to slow down and re-connect consciously to my intentions and desires.

My intentions are to have a close deep meaningful relationship with my beloved wife.  To breath life into US so that we can energize the love energy that we are and have together.  My intentions are to be, do, act, think, breathe, and become that for myself and my wife.  And ultimately our love story will reach out to our children and to humanity.

Today my words, my actions, and my thoughts are all aligned with this.  This has not always been so; as for many years I allowed distraction to come in-between us and to distort my vision - no more.

I love and desire more of the love energy I'm feeling for my wife now.  And my goal is to expand this into levels that we have never experienced before.  Today I recommit to walk a path and talk a path that is consistent with who I am and what I desire.

I love the commitments you and I have made to one another and our family and I will never again allow anything in between us.

I love you!

Affirmative Journey Day 12 ~ I choose Love!

Affirmation 12 ~ My Soul's vision (God's Vision) is continuously manifesting and expanding

 

US at Grand America a couple of years ago

Ali ~ My Soul’s Divine purpose is to BE here NOW.  I am here that Mother/Father God may know Itself through me in the Multiverse.

I am continuously manifesting my life through my thoughts, words, actions, and emotions.  I am bound by no person, place, thing, thought, or belief system.  My Soul’s vision comes into my awareness as I live my purpose.  As I live my purpose of being the presence of Love/Beauty and bring forth kindness, appreciation, generosity, creativity, harmony, wisdom, caring, happiness, my Soul’s vision become clearer and clearer to me.  My vision also is in a state of constant change, always expanding.  My vision has many aspects - myself as an individual, a wife and life-partner, a mother, my role in my vocation, my role in my spiritual community, my role as a neighbor in the Salt Lake City community.  I love living consciously aware of who I am, what I am, and where I am.

I AM - I am an individualized center of Love/Beauty.

I AM a wife and life-partner - I am in beloved relationship with Michael and choose to walk through life with him beside me.  I choose to show up in an authentic way offering myself as a mirror, through the ups and downs and ins and outs of our intimate walk.  To love without conditions.  To be open and available.  To share myself for the delight of the Divine.

I AM Mother - Our children are such a blessing ~ what a privilege and honor to be a part of another soul's journey. To be a mother, the vessel for a souls entrance onto this earth.  And to share in the unfoldment of Love/Beauty with them as they journey along life’s path.

I AM Minister - I show up as a voice and mirror to assist in the spiritual unfolding of others.  To love others - ALL others, into One human family.

I AM citizen of planet earth - here to be a wise and loving steward.

I AM THAT, I AM...

Namaste'

Michael ~  This is truth my love.  As Beckwith says, "we cannot hide from our secret thoughts because they show up as our life!"  The life divine is always on and never off.  That which shows up in the 3rd dimension is a direct manifestation of our vibrational energy.

This includes us for each other.  If life is our mirror and it is, I love what see and feel with you as my love partner and my girl!

I love you!

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 11 ~ I only look for love

Affirmation Day 11 ~  I am awakened to deep connection with Spirit in my heart and mind

Affirmative Prayer of St. Francis

I am an instrument of peace.
Where there is hatred, I sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon,
Where there is doubt, faith,
Where there is darkness, light,
and where there is sadness, joy.

Spirit within, I seek less to be consoled, as to console.
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love;
For it is in giving that I receive -
It is in pardoning that I am pardoned;
And it is in dying that I am born to eternal life.

Ali ~ As I awaken this morning I think of you being hundreds of miles away and knowing that you won’t return for another three days - in this moment I feel a distance, I feel alone, and a little sad.  Then I stop and question my thoughts, is it true that there is distance between us? Is it true that I am alone?  Am I sad?  I sit, I breathe, I inquire.  And the answer is “no,” it simply is not true.  I am never alone, Love/Beauty is always present in my heart and mind - if I choose to recognize It.  There is no distance between me and Life, it is right where I am always.  My thoughts about life are what create suffering in my life.

There is only One Life and you and me are a part of that One, therefore never disconnected.  When I really sit with this, I see that it is futile to keep thinking the thoughts that try to validate the illusion of distance. 

I look forward to you coming home but I really like my time alone.  I actually prefer it this way!

Today I am awakened to the depth of my awareness and I ignite the fire within and allow my passion to build and express through what I bring forth.  I let go of what has limited me - I seize the day - and I choose Love.  I only look for Love.

Affirmations
I am an instrument of peace.
I sow love.
I practice forgiveness.
I have faith.
I find joy.
I console others.
I listen.
I give and receive abundantly.
I am the eternal Light of Mother/Father God’s love.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 10 ~ The juicy nature of my passion

Affirmation #10 ~ My life is aligned with Love, passion, and beauty

 

Lake Tahoe - I love playing together...

Ali ~ I am at peace when my life is aligned with Love, passion, and beauty the only time am not at peace is when I am confused - today I surrender all confusion to be at peace.
I let go of thought patterns that do not align with peace.  When I slip into confusion about US, I will stop and ask myself, “Is that true?”  I will question my thoughts - those inner monologues and dialogues; examples: “He should be...”  “When he does that it means he doesn’t care about me.”  “I wish he would stop doing...”  Is it absolutely true?  I find myself mentally arguing with what isn’t true!  You shouldn’t be any other way than you are - you are perfect beloved, as you are.  I wouldn’t want you to change, unless you do, then I am good with that too!  Peace happens for me when I allow life to be life, Michael to be Michael, and me to be me.

I sit and ponder, if I am truly at harmony with what is, when I let life in it’s multiplicities of manifestations just be and I bring my focus right back to myself - my heart, and I allow the depth of my own being to be felt - who am I?  I sit in silence, a long silence.  Then I got a flood of awareness - a beautiful bliss bath of Love, passion, and beauty - ahhh, that is who I AM!  And this is what I bring to you my beloved - everyday I will be Love/Beauty.  And whilst we are apart, I will remember this feeling and I will tend to it and nurture it from bud to blossom to fruit.  Are you feeling the juicy nature of my passion?! Like the song says, “You make me feel like a natural woman....”

All of the Love in the Universe is in me now - I share it with you my beloved, you cannot take more that I have to give - I cannot give more than is available to me - Love is Infinite and Eternal.  The very nature of Love is to express unconditionally, it never holds back, and neither do I.  I love you - I love US - I love - I AM Love.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 9 ~ We are every-here

Affirmation Nine ~ I appreciate the ever flowing love between us 

 

Adam and Lauren's wedding at Wolf Creek

"A soulmate is an ongoing connection with another individual that the soul picks up again in various times and places over lifetimes. We are attracted to another person at a soul level not because that person is our unique complement, but because by being with that individual, we are somehow provided with an impetus to become whole ourselves." Edgar Cayce

Ali ~ I love the ever-flowing love between our souls ~ love is what feeds the soul.

In the stillness of the morning, I sit in the silence and enter into the deep no-thingness of the moment.  I invite my mind to sink down into my heart center.  I merge ego and Essence, and it is from this place that I call to you.  I call out not with words but with something beyond words.  I can describe it as more of a warmth in my heart - a pulsing, vibrating, energy.  This energy IS the “ever flowing love” that moves between us, back and forth.  I see this love energy as a breathing thing - when I exhale this energy from my heart, naturally your hearts inhales.  This is what we do.  Beloved, feel me now as you read these words, my love energy mingling with yours - Ommm...

On a quantum level there is no distance between us.  When I go within and consciously connect with Divine Presence, I find you my beloved.  There you are, right here with me.  It is this way for us all - we are every-here!

Michael ~ Beautiful day to my beautiful lady.

Today's thought/affirmation, "I appreciate the ever flowing love between us,” is especially delicious for me.  For so many years I struggled prioritizing the appreciation of our ever flowing love.

As I contemplate the depth of this statement I see with new eyes the truth of this statement in our very lives.  I want you to know how special it is to me that you are on the receiving end of my love energy which I am continuously charging and sending to you, and us. I know and feel that you are there, constantly loving me and us, and also energizing love energy which is intended for me to receive. And today I want you to feel with your whole heart that I too am graciously receiving your love and sending it right back to you amplified with my divine masculine energy.

I am In a constant state of appreciation of the love that we are and have for ourselves, each other, our family, and humanity.

I give great thanks for the ever flowing ever expanding love energy that we are.

I see you, know who you are, and give thanks for your life here and now.

Namaste' - my love

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 8 ~ Transcending the maya

 Affirmation ~ I am the peace that passes all understanding

Atop Snowbasin

“A man and a woman sit near each other;
as they breathe they feed someone we do not know,
someone we know of, whom we have never seen.”

Robert Bly

Ali ~ I love being at peace in our relationship!  My heart would like me to stay at peace - but sometimes my mind tries to sabotage it.  I prefer the natural easy way - The Tao - to be calm, serene, harmonious, and to take the path of least resistance.  When I enter into thoughts of Us, from this mind-set/heart-set, I breathe - I surrender - I feel vulnerable - and Spirit rushes into fill me completely.  All is perfect, as it is.  Nothing missing or wanting.  A sweet little hunger for you - an excited anticipation for our next conversation or rendezvous lingers and haunts my mind.

I am the peace that passes all understanding

As I connect with this statement, I awaken to a deeper recognition, that the deep peace that is associated with Presence (Mother/Father God, Divine Love/Beauty) is available to me when I let go of my ego mind and sit back in the seat of my soul - my Essence.  From this deeper perspective, I feel “the peace that passes all understanding” although I don’t understand it!  I grope at the edges of it with reverent fingers.

This peace becomes my peace as I let go of fear and trust in my Higher Nature, my Christ-ed Self.  At this elevated state of consciousness, I let go and I realize my capacity to be Love.  When I realize the Love that I am - I see the Love that you are - I recognize our Divinity.

This peace transcends all the maya - and lifts me into a state of grace.

Affirmative Journey Day 7 ~ Making the invisible visable

Here we are in Big Bear Lake at the Terry Cole-Whittaker event at the Bear Valley Center for Spiritual Enrichment.

Affirmation 7 ~ I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now

Ali ~ As I read this affirmation that Michael created, I felt a little apprehension as I thought about sharing on such an intimate act.  Then I reminded myself, this is your beloved reaching out to you, communicating with you about what is important to him.  I pondered   some questions that came to my mind, “Is there apprehension within me.”  “Do I hesitate in giving myself to my beloved?”  “Do I hold back my love from others?”  As I contemplated these questions, I asked myself “Is that true?  Are any of these questions really true?  And the answer was “Yes.”  I do hold back my love, I learned to do so when I was a child - it is a pattern that I identified some time ago whilst I was doing, The Work of Bryon Katie.  It’s back!

I closed my eyes, and bought myself back to my spiritual center and sat in the NOW for some time, just being present in the Presence.  With a relaxed mind, new eyes, and an open heart, I read the affirmation again, “I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now.”

I enjoy making love the priority.  I look forward with excited anticipation to your return, I visualize you walking through the door, tall and strong and smiling at me, reminding me that you have chosen me.  You chose to drive for 14 hours to be with me, I am so blessed and so loved and you continue to show me this and I feel loved and blessed every time you walk through the door.

I enjoy love being alive in my mind.  I feel that being in love is a natural thing for the soul, for the heart, but not necessarily the mind.  In the past my mind has argued with love, and gave me many reasons to hold it back.  In matters of the heart, I see that I cannot trust my mind.  My heart needs to teach my mind to love and to trust.  I feel that I am on to something big here - another breakthrough!

I close my eyes, and breathe - I invite my mind to move into my heart.  I invite my mind to quiet and settle into feeling the depth of Love.  “I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now.”

Yes, I enjoy making love with my beloved, it is an opening into Infinite Eternal Love/Beauty.  Making love is a path to God. Feeling the Love/Beauty with my beloved is like entering a secret garden filled with flowers we have planted together - beautiful, familiar, and magical.  Love energy expands into life through us, we bring it more fully into blossom on earth - we make the invisible visible!

Michael ~ My beloved, as I meditate on this thought I feel the desire to invite this into my heart, sit with it, and feel what comes forth.

What I realize is that as Beckwith says, “You cannot have something you’re not willing to become.”  Right?  Well, what I realized is that love is ever present and already exists.  So, it is true that it exists within me as well.  Making love with my beloved is more than creating something from nothing.  It’s easier than that.  Because love already exists within me.  And what I’m choosing to do is make love with you by choosing to energize that same love energy into you and what comes from that is magnificent and hardly describable in words.  I get my love back magnified and intensified with the love I receive from you.  Which becomes Us.  And births life through and as US.  I see that life and love are synonymous and see that love is forever expanding.  Never less and always more when we allow what already is to come forward and invite it in it becomes more and more and more.  There is no reason to hold back our love because it is Infinite, Eternal, and forever available.  Being conscious and aware of this, I can now enjoy!  Energizing my love into you and really enjoy creating the US together with you.

It’s exhilarating!  I am so blessed.

Affirmative Journey #6 - Energy flows where attention goes...

Playing in Santa Cruz - remember getting in our kayaks in the surf!

Affirmation #6 - I am proud of the love that we are and have together

Ali ~ I have respect for the love that we have nurtured for 17 years, even though we didn’t always give it the attention it required, it remained intact and strong because it was real.  Like a tough little plant, some years it did better than others, some years it blossomed and bore fruit, and others it yielded very little.  Today, our little plant is growing new shoots because we are fertilizing it with attention, enthusiasm, and creativity.  Thank you for having green thumbs my beloved!

Throughout our years we have maintained a continuous spiritual dialogue - both of us in love with Mother/Father God - curious about the mysteries of Life and metaphysics.  I love that we always nurtured that and are committed to being on the green growing edge of our own becoming.

I am proud of the love that we are and the Us that we are becoming by tending and caring for each other, our family, and our life.  Energy flows where attention goes

Michael ~ My love as I contemplate the love that we are, have, and make up together, I smile :)  It warms me and makes me proud of what we have.  Using the mantras, "I love this!" and "No thing in between us," has helped me to clear out the distortion that was once in-between you and me.  Today I see you clearly and am focused on US.  Knowing that you are there for me, receiving my signal and giving back to me, is highly motivating for me to be and to do the same.

I especially get joyful and delicious juices flowing when I think about us communicating clearly and playing together...

Thank you for being my beloved. I love you!

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 5 ~ Wonderful Breakthrough

Day #5 ~ Together we consciously breath love energy into existence through and as us right now.

As I contemplated today’s affirmation I realized that just 12 days ago I thought that the door of our relationship was inches from closing, it felt cold and lifeless - heavy and difficult.  It is amazing how less than 2 weeks later so much has changed.  With a slight shift in perspective the view changes and everything looks different - new and fresh.  Sharing these affirmations have helped me shift my focus of attention.  I still have moments of doubt and wonder if it is safe to open my heart, to be vulnerable - and Spirit says, “Opening your heart is natural - just do it - trust your heart.”  I LOVE THIS!

I have learned much about myself during my “dark night of the soul” journey I have been on over the last year.  At the time I felt that I was loosing, that things were being taken away from me.  But what I realized is that I was really gaining mySelf; qualities, such as compassion and respect for myself and others, a sense of independence and inner strength, and a greater appreciation for life.  Life gave me more because I had released much of what was holding me stuck in my pain.  What felt like a break-up or break-down was really a wonderful breakthrough!

Together we consciously breath love energy into existence through and as us right now ~ We are breathing love energy into our relationship, our family, our life.  And as we have committed to do this together we change our family history!  I love that we are writing a love story for our children and grandchildren.  I love that we live by choice and not by chance.

I breath in love, I exhale love, I speak words of love and I know that my thoughts create.  Beloved, I love that you care about me and that you think about us.  I am thinking of you now, wondering what you are dreaming about, good night beloved.

Our beautiful family

Affirmative Journey ~ Day Four

Affirmation #4:  I open my hart and allow eternal love to live love through me as me right now.

Ali ~ I ask myself: What is eternal love?  What does it look and feel like to be love?



Ernest Holmes says, “Love is the self-givingness of the Spirit through the desire of Life to express Itself in terms of creation.  Love is a synonym for God.  Love is free from condemnation, even as it is free from fear.  Love is a cosmic force whose sweep is irresistible.”



The idea of Love, is so enormous; I will attempt to understand it more fully.  Eternal love is timeless, never had a beginning and will never end.  Eternal love is infinite, not bound by time and space - it is included in, as, and through everything seen and unseen. Eternal love Life Force Energy - it is the Tao, the natural way of Life. It is Body, Mind, and Spirit - The Thing Itself, The Way It Works, What It Does. 

Love is who and what and why I am!  Sometimes, I don’t seem to remember all this, and I stop operating from an understanding of this Truth, I forget, and I operate from confusion and fear.  Michael Beckwith refers to God as Love/Beauty, I like that.  I participate in Love/Beauty as I am conscious of my ability to do so, or align with It.



With this understanding, I reexamine the affirmation and my question, “What does it look and feel like to be love?”  I am in the small what God is in the large - so I look to the way things are in life for clues.  How does Love operate?  It has a desire to be, to express.  It is in a constant state of change, yet It is always the same.  It is irresistible, attractive.  It is both logical and illogical.  It is unpredictable because it is not bound by person, place, time, situation.  It is available to all people but misunderstood by most.  I think of the Tao Te Ching (translated by Stephen Mitchell:)



The tao that can be told

is not the eternal Tao.

The name that can be named

is not the eternal Name.



The unnamable is the eternally real.

Naming is the origin
of all particular things.



Free from desire, you realize the mystery.

Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.



Yet mystery and manifestations

arise from the same source.

This source is called darkness.



Darkness within darkness

The gateway to all understanding.


I open my hart and allow eternal love to live love through me as me right now.

With my barely acceptable language concerning such an indescribable topic, I conclude:

I will keep my thoughts turned inward to Love/Beauty.  I will express myself in ways that communicate my Love/Beauty.  I will honor what feels good - what feels life affirming - what feels positive - what feels Holy.  I will move away from thoughts, words, people, situations, and circumstances that feel “off” and distract me from being the presence of Love.  My love will not stop - but I will not source dead things with my Life Force Energy, I must say “no” when I feel my energy is being drained.  I will reexamine my options, and ask, “where is my attention best received?  How can I serve and support life?"  I will trust my internal guidance - the Tao within, my Higher Self.  Where can I grow more Love/Beauty?  I will readjust my focus of attention so that I can best give my unique expression of Love.



I am only here for Love, and I share It abundantly, and my life becomes Love/Beauty.

Michael ~ Allowing and surrender, being the presence of the love energy that is who and what we are, but allowing this love to express through me is key.

The same is true when loving another and loving us as a couple.  Releasing and surrendering into the eternal love expressing through us, in us, and as us.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day Three

Affirmation #3: Right here and now I feel the closeness and love energy I have for myself, my beloved, and us as a couple.

Ali ~ Right here and now: I am present in this moment, rooted in the point of creation. It is here that I activate the energy of love in my mind - in my body. I feel it warm and alive.

I feel the closeness and love energy: I am love energy. My every thought is mingled with love and appreciation - this energy, this feeling is closer than close - it is every cell, atom, neuron, substance of my being.

For myself: I love my Self - that which is wise and powerful. I am love energy made manifest - I am alive, awake, and vibrant. I am passionate as I show up in the world, sharing my gifts and receiving gifts.

For my beloved: I love you, my chosen life partner - that I choose over and over again in my heart and mind. I give my beloved my full measure of love and support each moment - I know love is infinite and eternal and active as me.

For us: Two individuals choosing to walk life's path together activated in love energy. We focus on breathing life into US with each breath we breathe. We hold each other in high regard, physically, mentally, emotionally, energetically, and spiritually - and for this we are blessed. We are unique and wonderful and activate love energy in others through our example.

I love us and I am proud to walk beside you Beloved.

Michael ~ Myself - I love the life divine.  Know and understand I am It showing up through and as me, I smile in gratitude as a sign of my willingness to allow this and to dance this dance fully here and now.

My beloved - I see you, know who you really are and smile to you as an acknowledgment of my acceptance of you and gratitude for your willingness to express and shine your light and joy with me and others.

Us as a couple - I feel our common love for us.  Our desires to grow this into pure bliss and magnificence.  I’m happy we found each other and proud to provide stably for us.  Love you.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day Two

Affirmation #2:  Consciously we activate our awareness of the common energy that we have, that we are individually, and are as a couple.

Ali ~ I pondered our commitment to each other, not allowing anything to get in between us.  We established the desire to care for each other and the budding energy that was forming by nurturing it with kindness and consideration.  Sending each other text messages that shared our thoughts about us and one another - "nothing in between" "longing for your touch" "mmmmmm" - little nothings or little somethings, just sweet simple caring words that opened me up to wanting...

Michael ~ I’m feeling connected to us as a couple and am looking forward to connecting our energy, growing it, and spending time on our wedding rock in Big Bear Lake next week.  I especially love feeling the life energy we create together when we’re communicating love language through our physical connection.  I love to make love to you!  I want you...

Life As I Knew It Was Over...

I have been with my beloved for 17 years and this year we experienced a shift - everything seemed to fall apart.  Life as we knew it was over.  For several months we had no income; he changed careers and would be gone for months at a time; we became "empty nesters;" we moved from the home we built in the countryside to a small rental home in the city.  I felt alone, sad, and confused, but inspired to make the best of my new life and to thrive.  

So, we decided to "work" on us.  I share this personal journey in the hopes that it will help others that are going through similar situations.  We did a lot of talking about our marriage, what was working and what wasn't.  We shared our dreams and desires; our tears and our pain.  We were more honest with each other than ever before, we both felt that our marriage required a much deeper level of spiritual integrity.  We started off with a plan that each of us would write 7 affirmations, and over the course of 2 weeks, (the time he was away at work) we would meditate or contemplate one a day and share our discoveries with one another.  Below is Day One of our 14 day affirmative journey - I will share all 14 - thanks for reading and I hope this inspires you.

Love ~ Ali 

Affirmation #1:  I love this!
Ali ~ All day long, as often as it came to mind, I stated to myself "I love this!"  Whether I was walking, reading, cooking, painting, talking, etc... I would say "I love this" and my mood lifted, my attitude changed, and I felt lighter, happier, appreciative, and more grounded and present.  I found that as I changed my inner environment, my outer world changed for the better.  As I focused on my relationship with an "I love this!" mindset, I found myself thinking about us being together, sharing a meal, jogging, cooking, raking leaves - the simple things that make us "Us."  I LOVE THIS LIFE!

Michael ~ Mmmmm ~ All my love and energy at this moment is with you in appreciating us together enjoying ourselves fully.  Nice energy flowing between us - connective energy.  Nothing in between us.  I love this and let’s allow the love that we are to flow freely and expand daily.  I love you!  Love us and love this.

Everythings a Miracle

This morning as I walked through the park contemplating life and how my life got to be the way it is I was overcome by a new deeper awareness.  Recently "things" have been up for me, meaning that I am at that uncomfortable place of dealing with ME again!  I thought that I had dealt with my early childhood wounds of feeling uncared for, unimportant, unconsidered, and worthless, but here they come again, a new round of the same old same old.  "You are 50 years old, a minister and spiritual teacher, a mother of 3 grown children - GROW UP!"  The voice of the ego is still strong within me - so I humbly pray for love and compassion.

So many people struggle and suffer with their mind; we have all been conditioned to believe the thoughts we think.  Our collective and individual conditioning is so strong that it is no wonder why humanity is in the current state of turmoil.  What can we do?  How can we really embrace the teaching that we are spiritual beings having a human experience?  We have to understand the mind, the ego, and do whatever it takes to find a balance between ego and our spiritual Self, our Essence.

As long as we engage our problems at the level of mind we suffer, we must deal with our life from the level of the soul, the heart level.  Most of us, at our current level of awareness, are unable to transcend our pain and suffering.  We lack the courage to move on because we are still primarily operating at the level of mind/ego.  We resist trusting our Essential Self to take the lead.  Many of us that have awakened to the fact that we are spiritual being who have a mind, but are not the mind, have moments of "seeing through the eyes of God" or operating from unconditional love and acceptance but still resort to resolving our pain through the mind.  Only when we can embrace life, just the way that it is, and not try to fix it and take direction from the mind, will we operate from our authentic nature.  Thinking that anyone should act, think, or be any different than they are is a waste of energy - but how much time do we spend there?  If your mother, father, spouse, child, or friend triggers you to be mad, sad, hurt, frustrated, angry, disappointed, etc... you will continue to suffer.  Until the time comes that you are no longer triggered, you will primarily be living from ego.  When living from Essence, one transcends the lower energies of the physical, the mind identified world, and lives, moves, and breathes in a world where everything's a miracle.

Namaste'
Ali

 

Consciousness Arising

Life these days seems to be extremely stressful due to the pressures of society, the
media, and our economy; not to mention our personal relationships and our own lives. We live in incredible times of upheaval and change and I believe we are being called to
step up and embrace this change by raising our consciousness.  As Einstein said, "No
problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it."  As I
pondered this statement and thought about the current state of affairs and the struggles
so many are faced with on this planet, I asked myself, "What can I do?"  For me a
question arises in my mind and I then meditate on it.

As I sat in my comfortable living room, with soft music playing, my dog Coco sitting next
to me, a slight tension arose as a thought of how blessed I am and how there are so
many individuals around the world suffering from thirst, hunger, loneliness,
suppression... I pulled my attention back to the present moment, the "Now," and I
remembered Gandhi's words, "Be the change you seek in the world."  I realized with
deeper conviction, that I could not change the world, before I changed myself.

The physical world is an outer expression of humanity's inner turmoil of their minds. 
Each of us wage war in the comfort of our home, in the confines of our mind with our
unconscious thoughts, judgements, opinions, and negative self-talk.  My wise inner
voice whispered, "Be present, be here now."  Again the question, "What can I do?"  An
answer came, "What are you willing to do?"  As I stilled the busy grasping little mind, I
moved into the mind of my heart, I call this my Awakened Heart, and I listened.  It said:

Be kind and gentle with yourself and everyone you touch.
Be fully present and listen to those you are with.
Be generous with your love, your smiles, and your aliveness.
Be willing to grow out of your comfort zone.
Be willing to sit with the discomfort of others, knowing that you may have something
that will ease their pain and suffering.
Remember you are here to positively effect the lives of others, it is in the giving that you
receive your soul's longings.
Remember, we are all one big human family.  We all feel pain and hurt, long to love and
be loved , want to feel appreciated, meet our daily needs, take care of our families, feel
safe in our homes, and have the freedom to express ourselves.
Cultivate a field of unconditional love that encompasses and includes the entire planet
and everyone and everything on it, and beyond.
Honor each others differences, celebrate our uniqueness, and embrace our Oneness.
Once we know better, we do better!

As answers to my questions present themselves in my Awakened Heart, I found myself
feeling better, more peaceful and hopeful.  If I am sitting in my living room feeling my
consciousness expanding, then maybe sharing it with you will bring a smile to your face
and heart too!





Together we can cross the bridge to freedom ~ spiritual liberation ~ an untethered soul. 

Love yourself!
Peace and blessings,
Ali
Soul Coach

 

Grounded in Grace

I wrote this poem and painted this painting at a time of deep awakening ~ I share it with you with the intention of pointing you inward to your own answers.  May your soul be untethered ~ may you feel the expansiveness of love right now in your body, mind, and heart.

 

This is the moment I wish to change,
My thoughts as I’ve known them I’ll rearrange.
It’s time to give up all control
And reinvent my long played out role.

Letting go of old stories and releasing the past,
I experience a lightness of spirit at last.
In this very moment a new story I’ll write,
Me the main character filled with grace, love, and light.

Creating new boundaries and loving myself,
Bring mental, physical, and spiritual health.
I establish a serene and balanced pace,
And find myself deeply grounded in grace.
 

Ali Benjamin

Namaste'