Affirmative Journey Day 14 ~ Let's stay together

Affirmation 14 ~ As we give we receive - I am sending out love and appreciation with enthusiasm!

Let's Stay Together ~ Al Green ~ Click HERE to watch.

 Yellowstone

Ali ~ Today my beloved returns home after being gone for fourteen days!  My ego mind is amazed that only three weeks ago I felt such a great distance between us and now I feel so close, but my heart is not amazed it is very comfortable.  As I close my eyes and bring my awareness to my heart center, I feel a warmth and fullness that wasn’t there before.  This is very exciting to me, as though I am coming back to life!  Intuitively I feel that I am not only coming back to life but expanding my experience of love like never before.  I have great anticipation for what is unfolding and I am so blessed that you are reading this, because I know that my sharing of my journey is having a ripple out effect, breathing love awareness into the collective consciousness.

As I have continued to give my love to Michael through these affirmations and entries, and he has shared his thoughts and love with me, we have been actively engaged in the law of circulation.  Ernest Holmes states:

“When the law of circulation is retarded, stagnation results. It is only when we allow the Divine current to flow through us, in and out, we really express life. The law of giving and receiving is definite.”

This daily practice has allowed the Divine current to flow through us and enliven US.  Today I feel more alive and engaged in life, I feel more love, more loved, and more loving, not only toward Michael, but all people and life in general.  I can see that prior to our experiment I had been hindering the law of circulation in regards to love and activating it in regards to anger, hurt, frustration, and resentment.  I have known better than to do this, but that has not stopped me.  I can admit that underneath my positivity was this scared little girl feeling sad and hurt, that was hindering the flow of love.  I now loving release her from trying to hold on to the past - I see her in my minds eye, playing and laughing - poking her tongue out at me!

As I give, I receive - I am enthusiastically sending out love and appreciation to Michael as he drives fourteen hours to be with me.  I look forward to re-kindling our love tonight as we hold each other and connect our bodies, minds, and souls.  I am open and receptive to the love that is being birthed through our intention - I receive with deep love and gratitude, give abundantly, and from this I am blessed.

Namaste'

Michael and I are so excited by our blogging experiment that we have decide to continue writing together and starting tomorrow I will be posting in a new blog titled "BEing Love" - http://betheloveyouseeknow.blogspot.com

Affirmative Journey Day 13 ~ Excited anticipation for my beloved's return

Affirmation 13 ~ My thoughts, words, and actions align with my visions and goals

Enjoying a meal together ~ one of life's simple pleasures

Ali ~ My goal for these entries is to establish, develop, and maintain a loving, inspiring, fun, passionate spiritual partnership.  And to share it with others, that it may serve in a positive way.  In this way, I am aligning my thoughts, words, and actions with my goal.

I have been on a spiritual path for many years and I know the power of thought.  I especially know the power and impact my thoughts have had in my life.  It is my practice to direct my thoughts to what I desire and away from what I do not want.  This can be tricky because I have a tendency to want to think about my problems or issues, to try to fix and find solutions.  But what I have experienced is that the more attention I pay to the problem, the more life I breathe into it, and that is not so good.  So, I continually identify positive thoughts and solutions and pay attention to those thoughts.  It is my experience that energy flows where my attention goes.  I keep my attention on myself - on being present - on asking myself, “what can I do right now to breathe more love into this situation?”

Michael and I have agreed to come together and walk hand in hand and heart to heart in a spiritually conscious way.  To take time to look more deeply into life from the perspective of being a spiritual being having a human experience.  We have also made fresh new agreements to be more present with one another, to take time to listen without interjecting our opinions and solutions, and to make having fun a top priority.  We didn’t used to have much fun because we were to serious and stressed for that!

So now the fun begins - he will be home tomorrow and we are heading off for a week to visit friends and family, I want our time to be meaningful, interesting, active, relaxing, and FUN!  So, I breathe life into our vacation with thoughts, I visualize the places and people we will visit - I think loving and appreciative thoughts about them.  I create plans - not only an itinerary of who, what, and when but I create plans to have alone time with my beloved.  (I will share what we did to connect with each other as we go.)  I didn’t always put “US” at the top of our list, we seemed to fit in somewhere at the bottom, if at all.

Conscious living starts with being present in the NOW, the only point of creation.  Then with our thoughts and words - which are our tools in being conscious co-creators.  Divine right action will follow.

I am filled with excited anticipation for my beloved's return, an easy road-trip, and a fun filled vacation!

Namaste'

Michael ~ This affirmation brings me back to center.  I love this because this very thought causes me to slow down and re-connect consciously to my intentions and desires.

My intentions are to have a close deep meaningful relationship with my beloved wife.  To breath life into US so that we can energize the love energy that we are and have together.  My intentions are to be, do, act, think, breathe, and become that for myself and my wife.  And ultimately our love story will reach out to our children and to humanity.

Today my words, my actions, and my thoughts are all aligned with this.  This has not always been so; as for many years I allowed distraction to come in-between us and to distort my vision - no more.

I love and desire more of the love energy I'm feeling for my wife now.  And my goal is to expand this into levels that we have never experienced before.  Today I recommit to walk a path and talk a path that is consistent with who I am and what I desire.

I love the commitments you and I have made to one another and our family and I will never again allow anything in between us.

I love you!

Affirmative Journey Day 12 ~ I choose Love!

Affirmation 12 ~ My Soul's vision (God's Vision) is continuously manifesting and expanding

 

US at Grand America a couple of years ago

Ali ~ My Soul’s Divine purpose is to BE here NOW.  I am here that Mother/Father God may know Itself through me in the Multiverse.

I am continuously manifesting my life through my thoughts, words, actions, and emotions.  I am bound by no person, place, thing, thought, or belief system.  My Soul’s vision comes into my awareness as I live my purpose.  As I live my purpose of being the presence of Love/Beauty and bring forth kindness, appreciation, generosity, creativity, harmony, wisdom, caring, happiness, my Soul’s vision become clearer and clearer to me.  My vision also is in a state of constant change, always expanding.  My vision has many aspects - myself as an individual, a wife and life-partner, a mother, my role in my vocation, my role in my spiritual community, my role as a neighbor in the Salt Lake City community.  I love living consciously aware of who I am, what I am, and where I am.

I AM - I am an individualized center of Love/Beauty.

I AM a wife and life-partner - I am in beloved relationship with Michael and choose to walk through life with him beside me.  I choose to show up in an authentic way offering myself as a mirror, through the ups and downs and ins and outs of our intimate walk.  To love without conditions.  To be open and available.  To share myself for the delight of the Divine.

I AM Mother - Our children are such a blessing ~ what a privilege and honor to be a part of another soul's journey. To be a mother, the vessel for a souls entrance onto this earth.  And to share in the unfoldment of Love/Beauty with them as they journey along life’s path.

I AM Minister - I show up as a voice and mirror to assist in the spiritual unfolding of others.  To love others - ALL others, into One human family.

I AM citizen of planet earth - here to be a wise and loving steward.

I AM THAT, I AM...

Namaste'

Michael ~  This is truth my love.  As Beckwith says, "we cannot hide from our secret thoughts because they show up as our life!"  The life divine is always on and never off.  That which shows up in the 3rd dimension is a direct manifestation of our vibrational energy.

This includes us for each other.  If life is our mirror and it is, I love what see and feel with you as my love partner and my girl!

I love you!

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 11 ~ I only look for love

Affirmation Day 11 ~  I am awakened to deep connection with Spirit in my heart and mind

Affirmative Prayer of St. Francis

I am an instrument of peace.
Where there is hatred, I sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon,
Where there is doubt, faith,
Where there is darkness, light,
and where there is sadness, joy.

Spirit within, I seek less to be consoled, as to console.
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love;
For it is in giving that I receive -
It is in pardoning that I am pardoned;
And it is in dying that I am born to eternal life.

Ali ~ As I awaken this morning I think of you being hundreds of miles away and knowing that you won’t return for another three days - in this moment I feel a distance, I feel alone, and a little sad.  Then I stop and question my thoughts, is it true that there is distance between us? Is it true that I am alone?  Am I sad?  I sit, I breathe, I inquire.  And the answer is “no,” it simply is not true.  I am never alone, Love/Beauty is always present in my heart and mind - if I choose to recognize It.  There is no distance between me and Life, it is right where I am always.  My thoughts about life are what create suffering in my life.

There is only One Life and you and me are a part of that One, therefore never disconnected.  When I really sit with this, I see that it is futile to keep thinking the thoughts that try to validate the illusion of distance. 

I look forward to you coming home but I really like my time alone.  I actually prefer it this way!

Today I am awakened to the depth of my awareness and I ignite the fire within and allow my passion to build and express through what I bring forth.  I let go of what has limited me - I seize the day - and I choose Love.  I only look for Love.

Affirmations
I am an instrument of peace.
I sow love.
I practice forgiveness.
I have faith.
I find joy.
I console others.
I listen.
I give and receive abundantly.
I am the eternal Light of Mother/Father God’s love.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 10 ~ The juicy nature of my passion

Affirmation #10 ~ My life is aligned with Love, passion, and beauty

 

Lake Tahoe - I love playing together...

Ali ~ I am at peace when my life is aligned with Love, passion, and beauty the only time am not at peace is when I am confused - today I surrender all confusion to be at peace.
I let go of thought patterns that do not align with peace.  When I slip into confusion about US, I will stop and ask myself, “Is that true?”  I will question my thoughts - those inner monologues and dialogues; examples: “He should be...”  “When he does that it means he doesn’t care about me.”  “I wish he would stop doing...”  Is it absolutely true?  I find myself mentally arguing with what isn’t true!  You shouldn’t be any other way than you are - you are perfect beloved, as you are.  I wouldn’t want you to change, unless you do, then I am good with that too!  Peace happens for me when I allow life to be life, Michael to be Michael, and me to be me.

I sit and ponder, if I am truly at harmony with what is, when I let life in it’s multiplicities of manifestations just be and I bring my focus right back to myself - my heart, and I allow the depth of my own being to be felt - who am I?  I sit in silence, a long silence.  Then I got a flood of awareness - a beautiful bliss bath of Love, passion, and beauty - ahhh, that is who I AM!  And this is what I bring to you my beloved - everyday I will be Love/Beauty.  And whilst we are apart, I will remember this feeling and I will tend to it and nurture it from bud to blossom to fruit.  Are you feeling the juicy nature of my passion?! Like the song says, “You make me feel like a natural woman....”

All of the Love in the Universe is in me now - I share it with you my beloved, you cannot take more that I have to give - I cannot give more than is available to me - Love is Infinite and Eternal.  The very nature of Love is to express unconditionally, it never holds back, and neither do I.  I love you - I love US - I love - I AM Love.

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 9 ~ We are every-here

Affirmation Nine ~ I appreciate the ever flowing love between us 

 

Adam and Lauren's wedding at Wolf Creek

"A soulmate is an ongoing connection with another individual that the soul picks up again in various times and places over lifetimes. We are attracted to another person at a soul level not because that person is our unique complement, but because by being with that individual, we are somehow provided with an impetus to become whole ourselves." Edgar Cayce

Ali ~ I love the ever-flowing love between our souls ~ love is what feeds the soul.

In the stillness of the morning, I sit in the silence and enter into the deep no-thingness of the moment.  I invite my mind to sink down into my heart center.  I merge ego and Essence, and it is from this place that I call to you.  I call out not with words but with something beyond words.  I can describe it as more of a warmth in my heart - a pulsing, vibrating, energy.  This energy IS the “ever flowing love” that moves between us, back and forth.  I see this love energy as a breathing thing - when I exhale this energy from my heart, naturally your hearts inhales.  This is what we do.  Beloved, feel me now as you read these words, my love energy mingling with yours - Ommm...

On a quantum level there is no distance between us.  When I go within and consciously connect with Divine Presence, I find you my beloved.  There you are, right here with me.  It is this way for us all - we are every-here!

Michael ~ Beautiful day to my beautiful lady.

Today's thought/affirmation, "I appreciate the ever flowing love between us,” is especially delicious for me.  For so many years I struggled prioritizing the appreciation of our ever flowing love.

As I contemplate the depth of this statement I see with new eyes the truth of this statement in our very lives.  I want you to know how special it is to me that you are on the receiving end of my love energy which I am continuously charging and sending to you, and us. I know and feel that you are there, constantly loving me and us, and also energizing love energy which is intended for me to receive. And today I want you to feel with your whole heart that I too am graciously receiving your love and sending it right back to you amplified with my divine masculine energy.

I am In a constant state of appreciation of the love that we are and have for ourselves, each other, our family, and humanity.

I give great thanks for the ever flowing ever expanding love energy that we are.

I see you, know who you are, and give thanks for your life here and now.

Namaste' - my love

Affirmative Journey ~ Day 8 ~ Transcending the maya

 Affirmation ~ I am the peace that passes all understanding

Atop Snowbasin

“A man and a woman sit near each other;
as they breathe they feed someone we do not know,
someone we know of, whom we have never seen.”

Robert Bly

Ali ~ I love being at peace in our relationship!  My heart would like me to stay at peace - but sometimes my mind tries to sabotage it.  I prefer the natural easy way - The Tao - to be calm, serene, harmonious, and to take the path of least resistance.  When I enter into thoughts of Us, from this mind-set/heart-set, I breathe - I surrender - I feel vulnerable - and Spirit rushes into fill me completely.  All is perfect, as it is.  Nothing missing or wanting.  A sweet little hunger for you - an excited anticipation for our next conversation or rendezvous lingers and haunts my mind.

I am the peace that passes all understanding

As I connect with this statement, I awaken to a deeper recognition, that the deep peace that is associated with Presence (Mother/Father God, Divine Love/Beauty) is available to me when I let go of my ego mind and sit back in the seat of my soul - my Essence.  From this deeper perspective, I feel “the peace that passes all understanding” although I don’t understand it!  I grope at the edges of it with reverent fingers.

This peace becomes my peace as I let go of fear and trust in my Higher Nature, my Christ-ed Self.  At this elevated state of consciousness, I let go and I realize my capacity to be Love.  When I realize the Love that I am - I see the Love that you are - I recognize our Divinity.

This peace transcends all the maya - and lifts me into a state of grace.

Affirmative Journey Day 7 ~ Making the invisible visable

Here we are in Big Bear Lake at the Terry Cole-Whittaker event at the Bear Valley Center for Spiritual Enrichment.

Affirmation 7 ~ I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now

Ali ~ As I read this affirmation that Michael created, I felt a little apprehension as I thought about sharing on such an intimate act.  Then I reminded myself, this is your beloved reaching out to you, communicating with you about what is important to him.  I pondered   some questions that came to my mind, “Is there apprehension within me.”  “Do I hesitate in giving myself to my beloved?”  “Do I hold back my love from others?”  As I contemplated these questions, I asked myself “Is that true?  Are any of these questions really true?  And the answer was “Yes.”  I do hold back my love, I learned to do so when I was a child - it is a pattern that I identified some time ago whilst I was doing, The Work of Bryon Katie.  It’s back!

I closed my eyes, and bought myself back to my spiritual center and sat in the NOW for some time, just being present in the Presence.  With a relaxed mind, new eyes, and an open heart, I read the affirmation again, “I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now.”

I enjoy making love the priority.  I look forward with excited anticipation to your return, I visualize you walking through the door, tall and strong and smiling at me, reminding me that you have chosen me.  You chose to drive for 14 hours to be with me, I am so blessed and so loved and you continue to show me this and I feel loved and blessed every time you walk through the door.

I enjoy love being alive in my mind.  I feel that being in love is a natural thing for the soul, for the heart, but not necessarily the mind.  In the past my mind has argued with love, and gave me many reasons to hold it back.  In matters of the heart, I see that I cannot trust my mind.  My heart needs to teach my mind to love and to trust.  I feel that I am on to something big here - another breakthrough!

I close my eyes, and breathe - I invite my mind to move into my heart.  I invite my mind to quiet and settle into feeling the depth of Love.  “I enjoy making love with my beloved and expanding love energy into life through us right now.”

Yes, I enjoy making love with my beloved, it is an opening into Infinite Eternal Love/Beauty.  Making love is a path to God. Feeling the Love/Beauty with my beloved is like entering a secret garden filled with flowers we have planted together - beautiful, familiar, and magical.  Love energy expands into life through us, we bring it more fully into blossom on earth - we make the invisible visible!

Michael ~ My beloved, as I meditate on this thought I feel the desire to invite this into my heart, sit with it, and feel what comes forth.

What I realize is that as Beckwith says, “You cannot have something you’re not willing to become.”  Right?  Well, what I realized is that love is ever present and already exists.  So, it is true that it exists within me as well.  Making love with my beloved is more than creating something from nothing.  It’s easier than that.  Because love already exists within me.  And what I’m choosing to do is make love with you by choosing to energize that same love energy into you and what comes from that is magnificent and hardly describable in words.  I get my love back magnified and intensified with the love I receive from you.  Which becomes Us.  And births life through and as US.  I see that life and love are synonymous and see that love is forever expanding.  Never less and always more when we allow what already is to come forward and invite it in it becomes more and more and more.  There is no reason to hold back our love because it is Infinite, Eternal, and forever available.  Being conscious and aware of this, I can now enjoy!  Energizing my love into you and really enjoy creating the US together with you.

It’s exhilarating!  I am so blessed.